DS resurfaces

It seems that the double standard has returned to my life yet again. This confuses me, and I am having a difficult time understanding it. Last time is made absolutely no sense to me, and this time I feel very sad and upset because my partner simply doesn't trust me. She wants to trust me, but doesn't. My life has seemed to return to great inner turmoil as I struggle to get my arms around this.
The irony in it all is that it has been almost a year since my life started down this slippery slope. I continue to struggle and try to stay awakened. At least Tomorrow will be another fucking glorious day, and my life is mostly good.